I had taken the plunge into an Inner World, the plunge of just stepping into my world and oh boy was it a mess. Its as if my eyes had just turned inwards and then without any further warning just dropped me into an Inner World of total chaos. I was like “what is this all about” first you help me find my Inner World and then you leave me to deal with this? Had I just made a mistake? was I just dreaming? should I just turn back and close the door? were all questions I constantly kept asking myself. But I had only just walked into the door of this Inner World and already a raging battle had begun a battle with one of my greatest demons “Fear”.
“Fear is a demon we all have in our lives, which has been instilled in us from the day we entered into this physical plane. We all at some point in our lives will need to confront all our fears whether we like it or not”. For me the time had come, “talk about timing” I had just awakened and now this? Talk about bad luck, nevertheless curiosity kept me marching on, only this time I felt for the first time ever like I was not alone, this time I had an ally by my side. A new power had arisen, a power that was now supporting me to keep going. This new power I will refer to for now as “shakti” and at a later point in the blog discuss this further with you all.
A battle had now ensued between this power (shakti) and fear, one minute the fear ran riot the next the power took reigns. This back and forth motion continued for sometime, leaving me completely drained, physically and mentally I was a wreck, powerless as to what was happening. I had to let nature takes its course, the demon had to be brought to the light and finally banished forever. My life for a while was in turmoil lost at moments and then found again. It was sometime after all this that I came to another realisation, yes you guessed it another “Aha” moment. I had finally banished my demon, its as though this vault inside me that had been containing all my fears had just been broken. Shakti had just taken full reign over the demon and the good over the evil had finally taken back control. But wait “I thought” I have many more things that need addressing I am sure of it, how can this be it. It was then that I realised I needed to keep faith, the faith that in time what needed to be revealed to me would.
It was this first everlasting experience that led me deeper into the unknown. I literally found myself questioning everything about my life, from the day that I was born to the present moment. The journey was going to be both long and demanding but I had to move on, I had to find my answers.
The practice of waiting has never really been an admirable quality of mine to say the least. Trying to discover what this Hidden World had to offer me, had been keeping my mind restless at the best of times. Days just seemed to be dragging on forever, while the nights were full of unexplainable energy surges and disturbed sleep. At points I would wake completely drenched through, yet fully alert and I’d panic thinking what was going on with me? Most at this point would have probably consulted a physician with the hope for answers, but not me. I knew deep down that what my body was going through at that point in time was not any physical ailment, it was as I realise it to be now an awakening. What was awakening? I was already awake wasn’t I?
Hidden World I thought, what could this all be about. Wasn’t the world I already saw with my own two eyes the only world? the only reality? or was their something else? A Hidden World… one that was only seen by a lucky few, the fortunate amongst us or was it a world that had just been hidden from me all along. That initial thirst which I had had sometime ago had just suddenly turned into a hunger. A total curiosity to know more had just become my new driver, I was now a man on a mission. That mission was to seek new knowledge, to fulfill as many answers to the questions I had spinning around in my head. Only and only then could I realistically start to piece together this puzzle I had been exposed to.
The mission had been set, set to discover this Hidden World. The drive and determination was geared and ready to go; suddenly it dawned on me how could a lost man discover a new world when the current one was no longer affirming to what he knew. “It is always easy to create ideas and dreams; but to execute and materialise them in reality is the difficult part”. I had to find a guide a guide that could help me begin this search, somebody or something that knew what was going on. Weeks and months went by with ideas and visions all creating storms in my head, “Who Am I” I’d think, if i am not this physical body I relate to then what? What is controlling me? What was all this new energy I was suddenly feeling? Was I becoming unwell? I had to begin I had to solve this mystery. Then one day on my way home from work feeling rather relaxed and calm it clicked. First a smile, then an energy surge, followed by an excitement like never before, one of those “Aha” moments. It transpired that I had been looking in all the wrong places in the wrong direction, I had been living my life the wrong way, Id been living outside-in. The outer world had been controlling me, controlling and creating my Inner Reality.
The “Hidden World” I had so longed to discover had just opened a door. Was I ready to take this step in “I thought”. What if I never came back, what if….. but I was ready, ready to take that step into my world, my hidden world.
‘And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom‘ – Anais Nin
Visualise and Manifest as the new year approaches, you may be looking back at the success you encountered and/or your perception of defeats but remember one thing, which is “without imbalance there cannot be balance, and without balance there cannot be imbalance”. We must remember that all that was upon us was an outcome of our mind and creation of our thoughts. Everything is a process of the ability to Visualise and Manifest. After all, energy cannot be created nor destroyed, it is merely transformed from one state to another, this is a law in physics (the law of conservation of energy), and as once rightly implied, all thought is just energy, so to create thought (energy) just use your imagination.
The week between Christmas and New Year I find is the perfect time for you all to escape into your inner mind and try to Visualise and Manifest all your wants and desires. To visualise and manifest is such a simple concept, yet some still ponder how something so straightforward can possibly be true? As did I until I began to believe.
Think back to when you were a child, that mere cardboard box was the fastest car known to man, a rocket blasting through space, a dressing table, a desk… Everything you imagined in your head was real, and at times reality and vision merged into one. (Only when you stopped believing i.e stopped the visualise and manifest concept and created restrictions, did these dreams fade into the distance). The simplest way I found to start the process of manifestation was to create some peaceful alone time and bring back that inner child in me. I did this by dropping all of my boundaries and just thinking about my biggest dreams and wishes. I’d also start visualising the environment and the emotions thatwere created and justhow this made all my senses feel. This simple exercise left me feeling very positive and thus emitted affirmative vibrations into the universe.
As a beginner, I found it easier to manifest on simpler goals (as opposed to being a millionaire straight away for example) related to my personality and achievements. I did this by just being a more positive individual and broadening my knowledge by reading around my subject. Once I had gathered my thoughts I found writing them down in the present tense made me feel as though it was already mine, for example I am a positive and open individual, again emitting vibrations to the universe at the same frequency as I wished for them to bounce back. One important thing I found was once Id made mywish list to which I had spent time on manifesting, visualising and feeling, all that was left to do now was to believe, trust and then let it go.
Having the faith that in your minds eye to Visualise and Manifest, will at some point in time translate to the physical realm is key. Sending out feelings of disbelief and lack of faith will only slow down the process and counteract the frequencies, you already sent out to the universe. What I have found that works best is to trust and to forget in order to stop myself obsessively thinking about when my manifestations will transpire. Do not dwell on how this may happen; this is not for you to worry about, just believing that it will happen when the time is right. (‘Everything you need will come to you at the perfect time’– Unknown). Just get on with living in the present and enjoying the signs the universe unravels for you.
Finally, some factors to consider, manifestation and visualisation should be a selfish art. By selfish I mean you can only control your own reality, you cannot control the lives of others however, you may wish to control your attitude towards others. Remember, anything you can imagine is possible, there are no boundaries, only the limitations you create in your mind.