Who Am I? I have always held the strong belief that the reflection I see every morning in the bathroom mirror is a complete confirmation of the person that I am. Never once have I had to question this image glaring right back at me, never have I had to pose the question of Who Am I?
Little was I to know that one day, this perception of myself was actually going to change forever. It was early 2015 and as clockwork I woke up to my daily routine. It turns out that this was not going to be another normal day. For it was the first day I had looked at myself in the mirror and seemed totally lost. No matter how hard I stared at my reflection that morning I could no longer recognise what I saw reflecting back at me. For the first time ever in my life I actually did not know who I was.
It was this day which became the most pivotal point of my life, everything I thought I knew was no longer a confirmation of Who am I. No longer was the man in the mirror what I had always related to as me recognisable. Something had changed but at that point in time I did not have any idea as to what this change was and why it had happened. What I can share with you all is this and that is, whatever had happened to me that day was exactly the way it was meant to have happened in my life. It was this scary event of losing myself and questioning Who Am I that actually led me onto this new journey of discovering the real me.
“In order for you to be found you must first be lost, only when you are lost will you understand what you have found”.
A new journey for me had just begun a journey which I couldn’t have even dreamt of. Up to that point in my life something had always been controlling me, but I’d had no idea of this controller. I always had thought I was already free, joyful and happy, but only once this new realisation had set in did I really sense the real meaning of freedom and happiness. For the first time ever not knowing “who I was” felt like I was starting to actually find out more about who I really was. There was no longer the feeling like I was a servant to something. It’s as if the master was now ready, ready to finally reveal himself to me and show me this hidden world I had been missing. I had already waited this long without knowing, “I’d say to myself” but my thirst for the unknown was now running in overdrive, all I needed was answers. I did not want to wait any longer, its as if it had all been a long time coming and I was now meant to find my way back home.